Since last May I've been keeping a Prayer Scorecard, a list of answered and unanswered prayers. The original idea was to help me see if my prayers were really being answered. It had been a bleak and difficult year and I needed some measurable evidence.
Now that the year is coming to an end, I've tallied up the prayers. Now, many of them, especially the ones that are still in the Wait or Not Yet Answered category have been moved from month to month, so the tally isn't completely accurate. But the ratio of yes, no and not yet is what interests me.
So, from May to December, there have been:
47 Yes
25 No
78 Not Yet
So, I have had nearly twice as many prayer requests granted as I have had denied. But nearly as many prayers as the combined yes and no are still unanswered. Since most of these, if not all, eventually have to have a yes or no, I'm going to continue keeping the Score Card for a few more months, at least.
And I continue to hope that the majority of prayers will be "yes" again in 2013.
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| “Francis of Assisi” was released in April. Cornell University Press |
“Francis of the received tradition is a happy troubadour of God,” said Dominican Father Augustine Thompson, author of a new biography titled “Francis of Assisi” (Cornell University Press, $29.95). “That’s the popular image and it’s not made up. He loved to sing in bad French and play his air violin, but the Francis I came to know experienced the deep darkness as well.”
Man and myth
In
this extensive work, based on all the existent original documents,
including those written by Francis, the saint emerges as a much more
complex and complicated man than previously believed, tormented by
interior demons, nearly overwhelmed by the challenges of governing a
religious movement and troubled by self-doubt, yet still a shining
figure of the transforming power of an encounter with the living
Christ.| The Prayer of St. Francis |
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“I have often been astonished at how unhappy students can be when
they encounter a different Francis from the one they expect. Oddly
enough, the most painful moment usually comes when they discover that
St. Francis did not write the ‘Peace Prayer of St. Francis.’ … The
‘Peace Prayer’ is modern and anonymous, originally written in French,
and dates to about 1912, when it was published in a minor French
spiritual magazine, La Clochette. Noble as its sentiments are, Francis
would not have written such a piece, focused as it is on the self, with
its constant repetition of the pronouns ‘I’ and ‘me,’ the words ‘God’
and ‘Jesus’ never appearing once.”
— Father Augustine Thompson
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It’s not that the earlier versions of Francis were wrong per se: “Every myth, modern or medieval, contains a truth. What a hagiographer does is remodel the story to give a theological message,” Father Thompson said. “The job of the hagiographer is not to tell a history. ... Legends about Francis are true, they just aren’t historically true. I’ll give an example. I don’t believe there was any dream by Pope Innocent III about this little man holding up the Lateran Basilica. However, the introduction of that dream by the hagiographer is not a historical point. The function of the dream to explain what Francis is about. That his mission of creating a new religious order is going to save and support the Church. The hagiographer uses hagiographical types to comment on the saint.”
Because of that, traditional hagiography helps the reader understand that the person is actually a saint. “They conform them to the canons of what an age thinks a saint should be like,” Father Thompson added. “By the way, I’ve done it too, in the sense that I’ve made a human Francis and our age wants our saints to be human. We want to hear [that our saints] are like Christ, which means they have all the weaknesses of humanity except sin and at the same time God is present and working in them.”
The Francis that Father Thompson discovered in his research was very human. “Francis goes through dark nights of the soul, when he was feeling inadequate,” he said. “Francis is not the birdbath saint, not someone who never discovered he was wrong on anything or who never had any doubts. He was a very fragile psyche, who carried with him a lot of demons, not just those that attacked him. He struggled with the horrors of the battles he witnessed. I don’t like doing psychology on someone who lived 800 years ago, but he was clearly traumatized by his time in the military.”
And yet, “The image of him spontaneously desiring to follow God’s will wherever it would lead him; that’s the kind of free spirit part of Francis that is true. If he perceives God is telling him to do something, if it’s something he doesn’t expect and it’s weird, he will do it. I think that is beautiful and it’s true.”
Major misconceptions
Of
all the misconceptions we have about Francis, three seem prevalent. The
first is that his parents were bitterly antagonistic to him. In looking
at the documents, Father Thompson came to a much more sympathetic
picture of Pietro de Bernardone, his wife Pica and their other son,
Angelo. In the earliest accounts, “they don’t understand they have a
saint on their hands, that’s the earliest description of the
relationship. … By the time you get to the 1240s, his father has been
turned into a totally evil person and his mother has become the secret
protector, but in the earliest versions [his father is presented] as
someone who is suffering and doesn’t understand his son.” In fact,
Francis behaved in ways that weren’t always saintly with regard to his
family, such as mortifying Pietro by hiring a man to follow him through
the streets of Assisi calling out a blessing.A second misconception is that Francis’ great conversion came as a result of renouncing his family fortune, when it actually occurred a bit later when he worked among the lepers. “This encounter with lepers, not the act of stripping off his clothing before the bishop, would always be for Francis the core of his religious experience,” Father Thompson told OSV. “As near as we can tell, it happened on the outskirts of Assisi. … Wherever the leprosarium was, Francis lodged there with the residents and earned his keep caring for them. His experience with them had nothing to do with choices between wealth and poverty, knightly pride and humility or even doing service instead of conducting business. It was a dramatic personal orientation that brought forth spiritual fruit. … Francis says, ‘When I was in my sins, God took me among the lepers and he worked mercy through them and he made what was previously bitter to be sweet. I did not wait long to leave the world.’”
The third and perhaps most major misunderstanding is his relationship to the Church.
“Francis was a faithful Catholic,” Father Thompson said. “If there is a problem with the appropriation of Francis as an ecologist, a feminist, you can go down the list, how he would have identified himself is lost.”
Even though we frequently bring Francis into our modern preoccupations and issues, Father Thompson reiterated, “The problem is that these are modern concerns, and Francis isn’t a 21st-century American.” He stressed that “the one thing people need to remember Francis was a devout, committed 13th-century Catholic and that helps explain many things about him.” Often biographers edit out things that don’t make sense to modern readers, like his preoccupation with clean altar cloths and proper vessels for Mass. “He has six letters harping on this,” Father Thompson said. “The usual biography of Francis just deep sixes that because today being a rubric hound and sacristy rat is not what those who like to talk spirituality think a saint should be.”
Dependence on God
Father
Thompson said that if we are to know the real Francis, we have to be
willing to shed some of our preconceived notions. One is that of
“Francis as a religious genius at war with the institutional Church,
misunderstood by the institutional Church. This is the theme, implicitly
or explicitly, of virtually every Hollywood version of Francis. … It is
completely anachronistic. … One of the things Francis taught me is that
holiness is impossible without fidelity to Catholic teaching.”Father Thompson said that among the positive things he learned from his study of Francis are that “the love of God is something that remakes the soul,” and that “true Christian freedom comes from obedience, not autonomy.” But perhaps the most important lesson is that “the core of his spirituality was absolute dependence on God, and the desire to always be the lesser brother. … His willingness to follow wherever God leads him even when it’s not something he expected, that kind of spontaneous seeking to do God’s will … is a theme of his life, a beautiful theme and I think it’s true.”
While this new look at Francis might prove disturbing to some people who have been weaned on such pious legends as the Wolf of Gubbio, the real saint may be even more compelling, since he suffered from many of the doubts and stresses we experience today including trying to hear and obey God’s call in our lives.
Yet, despite it all, he shows us that the only true way to peace and eternal happiness lies in becoming the unique individual God has created each of us to be.